I just turned 39 years old. Where has the time gone? Now there’s just one more year until the end of that decade and the beginning of a new one…my 40’s. I know a lot of people dread their 40’s! Something about that number makes them feel all of sudden old. Or close to being old. I’m honestly not really sure what the issue is with some people hitting their 40’s. I just know I’m not afraid of them. I’m excited to start a new decade. Although before I do, I had someone tell me not to waste away year 39 as if it didn’t exist and I was already 40… to enjoy my last year in my 30’s and embrace it. Don’t wish it away too fast.
So as I begin my 39th year I want to make a promise to do just that! To make this an awesome year with purpose and drive and really take hold of year 39! I want this year to not be about an ending, but a beginning. I acknowledge the fact that I haven’t been the best about things I believe are part of my purpose in life. If there’s one thing I’ve learned over the years if you truly put your mind to something and make an effort, with God’s guidance and help, you can absolutely accomplish your purpose or goal.
Which if I’m really being open and honest with myself that means I’m not really putting much of an effort into this and truly making up my mind to get it done. I absolutely know there is plenty of time in my day and in my week to get this accomplished along with everything else I’m already doing.. I just don’t do it. Why? I looked over my blogs over the past few years and I’ve posted entry after entry all about how, “I am going to make an effort to do better”. And I do.. for a while, and then more time lapse without any regularity.
It’s hard to believe I’ve been sitting in this chair for almost 23 years now. I’ve been paralyzed longer then I haven’t been. It seems kind of hard to believe when you think about it. Through it all God has taken care of me and consistently shown me His grace, His love, and many blessings despite how far I tend to stray. That is the beauty of our God. I want to honor Him in my life and make the changes I need to make to make sure I live for Him! I do not want to hide or pretend I have it all together because I obviously don’t…but I’ve decided enough is enough and I am determined to fulfill my purpose.
Therefore, I am going to do some deep soul searching this year and figure out once and for all what it is holding me back! I know I can accomplish great things if I choose to put forth the effort to do so. This video really touched me and inspired me to fight for my purpose in life. I thought it might also inspire some of you!
I am exited, motivated and determined to press forward in whatever life may bring my way. Year 39 is going to be the new beginning of it all! I can’t wait to see the ride God takes me on. As I do, I look forward to sharing my journey with you.