Trust… That word has a very deep meaning. Webster defines it as a firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. It’s having complete faith that you KNOW that whoever or whatever you are believing in is going to pull through for you. What do you put your trust in on daily basis?
About a year ago, I got really sick and was in the hospital for a bowel obstruction. They needed to put a tube down my nose to relieve the gas pressure and to do so they gave me a drug to help relax me and reduce my anxiety about the procedure. I was really sensitive to this drug because too much of it suppressed my respirations and I had a hard time breathing. Because of that, I told them I could only receive a very small dose of this drug and could only take it for this one procedure. Somewhere through the grapevine that very important nugget of information got lost. After I was admitted to the hospital for my bowel obstruction they kept giving me one dose after another.
The next day my breathing was extremely labored, but my nurse assumed I was ok because they had my vitals monitored at the nurses station. That afternoon my pulmonologist from Shepherd, Dr. Zadoff, stopped by to see me. He took one look at me and went to the nurses station to check my vitals. To his shocked surprise, my oxogen saturation level was down to 30. Anything below 90 is considered low and anything below 60 requires the need for supplemental oxygen.
He called a code and everyone rushed in to revive my very lifeless body. They placed me on a ventilator to help me breathe and several hours later, after the drugs wore off, I came to. A very long story made as short as possible. my bowel obstruction cleared up by itself. While the overall situation was scary and I came close to dying, God was using it to reveal much bigger problems going on with my lungs. My left lung was partially collapsed and my CO2 levels were extremely high among other issues. I had known something was wrong with my breathing for a while, but I was ignoring it.
God knew that I needed help with my lungs and rather than let me head down a destructive path on my own He stepped in and saved me. This was another reminder that He is there guiding me and I can most definitely TRUST Him.
When you put your complete trust in the Lord, even when bad things happen, you will eventually begin to see the good that has come from it. My life has shown me that. I believe that if you start looking for it, you’ll see you can fully trust God with yours, too.