When I woke up this morning and began thinking about how my day was going to unfold I had a strong conviction about the choices I have made over the past year. Each and every day life is made up of a series of choices you make… do you work hard or play, focus or day dream, live a life of purpose or let life pass you by with no motivation.
The last blog I wrote was back in February of 2022. It’s been over year and that bothers me. I know for a fact that some of that is because I made a choice not to focus on it. Granted, the past year has been a rough one. To start back in May 2022 I fractured my hip which led to surgery followed by 4 weeks in the hospital. Then when I came home I had 4 weeks of physical therapy to get my hip and leg back to a somewhat normal position.
Several months after that in March 2023 I ended up back in the hospital again for what they thought was a bowel obstruction. After doing a series of tests and x-rays it corrected itself, but it was a miserable week with terrible stomach pain. When I got home I was focused on myself to get better and healthy again.
To top off all the fun I’ve been having (note the sarcasm “as in really no fun at all) about two months after that, in May I lost my 13 year old service dog dies do to at large tumor on his spleen. He had been by side every day going with me everywhere I went. Now that he’s gone there is a huge void in my life from his death. I miss so much and wish he could have lived longer.
I love having a pet. They become a part of you and part of the family. That love for him will always remain with me even though he’s gone. I even bought a small box engraved with his name on it that has some of his ashes in with that I hooked on my chair where his leash used to attached. Now he will continue to be by my side as my service dog forever!
The past year drained me to the point that I was feeling kind of numb and lost. My day basically was consumed by watching movies all day and /night or getting on the computer and playing solitaire. EVERY DAY! It got to be so bad that as soon as I would get on the computer solitaire would start calling me, Jessica, come play me, come play me. Like I needed to go to solitaire anonymous just to stop letting it consume my mind. Which is kind of funny in a way, but then truly being honest and open with my faults it completely a distraction that kept me from doing things I should be doing…like writing blogs, working on finding the next step for my book, focus on building my platform.
Bottom line I was choosing to let day after day pass by without making any effort to do the things I know God wants me to be doing. I was being lazy and unwilling to follow through with anything. I don’t want to be that person that doesn’t follow through with what God is calling me to do.
My favorite numbers have always been 4 and 7. A few days ago on, July 7, I turned 47 years old. I believe that my 47th year here on earth will bring life changing possibilities! I know I am determined to choose to make right choices every day to take me on the path that God leads me. I pray all of you find your path God is calling you to as well. Live a life full of purpose and hope to open up all the opportunities God has planned for your life. I know I’m excited to see the journey God has in store for me!
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